As the calendar year comes to a close, we often contemplate the future with the hope that it will be filled with successes and changes. I truly believe it would be more beneficial to look back at the old year.
Indulge me for a moment as I reminisce about the events of 2013. Perhaps you will recognize your own successes and changes that were barely noticeable at the time.
On a personal note, in 2013 I faced my fears of being abandoned. For years I believed everyone would leave me if I did not make that call, send that card, make an invitation to breakfast, lunch or dinner.
I always felt I had to make the first move for fear no one would be there for me. So in 2013 I decided to stop that fear-based habit. I was amazed at the response. Those individuals I believed would notice did not and those I thought would never notice did.
I came to understand that those who stayed in contact or those who didn’t had their own journey to walk. If I was not part of their current journey, it did not mean I would never have a part in their lives again.
I understood that my fear controlled my relationships. At one time, I actually thought I would die if I were abandoned. It was a revelation to know that my resilience was greater than I ever imagined. This new insight opened my life to new and exciting relationships I would not have thought possible.
Bipolar Insights also matured. Celebrating 15 years of service to the community, the group has became a catalyst for change.
As Bipolar Insights became larger than it had ever been, the personal touch became more difficult to achieve.
It became apparent that more than one person was needed to touch a life. Yet, who would help? It was a challenge that had to be faced and I realized the challenge was to begin with me.
As the facilitator of Bipolar Insights, I was the mom who had a hard time letting go of her children as they grew and became independent. I was the mom who thought I needed to protect. I had become co-dependent (I wrote a column about co-dependency and never applied it to myself. How amazing is that?).
This revelation changed my view on the group’s future and the views of the board. As the call for help and change went out, the response was incredible.
A fund raising and marketing committee was created. Funds began to roll in and individuals asked in what ways they might help.
My heart melted as I watched my “children” be highly functional adults and able to be independent. It did not mean I would not get a call for advice from time to time, just as a child might call Mom to discuss a problem. The beauty is that the call is about needing someone to listen; the solution will come from the individual making the call.
We at Bipolar Insights are venturing out to reach those who are unable to attend class each week by utilizing technology. We are in the process of offering “Webinar” (web/seminar) classes online. The class will be recorded and sent live across the Internet into the homes of anyone interested.
Our board feels this is a wonderful step. I, on the other hand, need to lose 50 pounds and have a face lift. Obviously, that is a story for another day.
With all this said, I hope you will take a moment to look back at 2013 and see the growth in your life and all those around you. Begin to see that within fear, pain and suffering there is a healing that touches the very soul of a person and drives them into an extraordinary journey.
Look to 2014 with excitement as you walk day by day through your life, a life you will only truly recognize at the end of 2014. Remember, our lives are lived as we go through them. It is not what is happening now in the moment; it is moment upon moment that brings us through.
This moment you are reading this column, there must be a reason. Perhaps it is time to come and visit us at Bipolar Insights. Perhaps it is so you will share the column with someone else. We never know what one action will bring, one word or one story.
I am so very thankful for 2013. Not every day was a good day but each one was always a healing day filled with purpose.
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Bipolar Insights will soon be broadcasting classes, live, online. Make sure to check the Website. The 2014 calendar/journal is available at bipolarinsights.com.
The co-founder and facilitator of Bipolar Insights Marcia Rose can be reached at [email protected] Weekly classes start at 7 p.m., Sundays at Marshall Medical Health Conference Room 207/208, 681 Main St. in Placerville, and on Mondays, in Room 304, Green Valley Church, 3500 Missouri Flat Road in Placerville. The fee is $5 per person.
Check bipolarinsights.com for complete details and further information.